…oh hey there!

So…where do I event start? Instead of playing catch up, I’m going to just start with the present. I’m sure everything that’s happened since my last post (cough one year ago cough) will come up anyways!

Here we are, it’s almost the middle of July and here is what is happening for me:

  • I am a CycleStar…yes, I am a STAR! Becoming an indoor cycling instructor has been a dream of mine ever since I fell in love with the workout back in Dallas. Now I am up on the podium and teaching a class full of riders and it is the most amazing feeling! I will be posting about the training experience, etc. very soon! But as for now, I am loving what it is bringing to the table in my life. If you are reading from Aspen, I’d be stoked to see you in my class! (Book online here). I am teaching early mornings which is super fun, but we also have other kickass instructors to check out as well 🙂

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  • I am in love! How gooey and gushy that statement was… but it’s true! I have been in a relationship for almost a year now and it has been the most amazing lesson on so many levels. Devan came into my life at the perfect time. I told the universe that I was ready to enter into a real and committed relationship again. What came with it was not flowers and chocolates, though, but so much more that has strengthened who I am and given me such a better sense of reality. Devan challenges me to be my best self, and that makes me set the bar high for myself and what I really want in life.

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  • I am still in Aspen.. surprise! I don’t even think that was mentioned in my last post. I think I was still home, playing with the idea of going to Aspen for a winter season, and here I still am! I went into this phase of my life trying my best to just let things happen naturally, and while that still poses a challenge at times, I know I am exactly where I need to be. Right here, right now. Plus- I always wanted to do a winter in aspen, and I did it! And I’m doing it again this year 🙂

So there you have it, just a little glimpse of what’s going on in the present. I intend to spend more time diving into what I’ve learned, and what I continue to learn. I am currently seeing an amazing life coach who also does Reiki healing and I must say it is pretty damn cool! I have been introducing mediation into my life and also started to get back into yoga again. I believe that my verrrry long hiatus from yoga happened for a reason, and now I am ready to re-enter into that realm again. Exciting!

Happy week to all!

 

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next step

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Woah.. so this is a major transition phase. I’m currently at home resetting before my next move, and I am all over the place! It’s crazy to think that my entire life has been shaped by the “next step”: you go to school and work towards the next grade, apply to high school, apply to college, and now what? Sure, I could just keep moving into an entry level job and climb the corporate ladder, but I don’t see any happiness and fulfillment there. So instead, I’m choosing to spend this time discovering more about myself and what kind of impact I want to have on the world.

(To those of you who went straight to work, I’m not totally hating on you.. some of you already knew what you wanted and I respect you for your drive!)

Anyways, this time is not easy. I know it’s not supposed to be. I have so many things I want to do, so many places I want to see, and for some reason feel like there’s not enough time. I can already tell that in the future I will look back and think I was crazy to think I had so little time to see the world. But at the same time, I don’t want to sit back and let time fly.

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So for now, I am trying to seek comfort in the chaos. I hope to learn and grow in the next year through new experiences. I want to take on different jobs and discover what drives me the most. My dream would be to be able to travel for my career…how cool would it be to travel with the World Surf League? I am passionate about the action sport industry, so I plan to spend this time finding what works best for me.

But at the same time, I am not locking myself into any commitments yet, as tempting as it is to be comfortable. I long to be in my home base, but have the rest of my life to do that. I want to make sure I experience as much as I can, and believe that these lessons will land me in the right place at the right time. It won’t be easy, but I know it’s right for me!

x

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dreamer

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Suluban Beach, Bali

It’s funny, how when people ask me about my tattoo, somehow with a sort of smirk (or so I think). I just smile and say, “it’s my Australian souvenir” or “you know, I really wanted the word dreamer tattooed on my wrist, so I got it.” Sure, it has its moments, I look at it and wonder why I would do that…and hey, maybe I’ll get it removed one day. But sometimes, it reminds me of the mindset I was in, and the phase in my life where the whole thing took place.

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After a few days…sorry mom!

I wrote lists of reasons why I’m a dreamer. I was in such a state of bliss-I had traveled across the world and was on my own for six months. I was completely vulnerable, figuring out who I was and how I wanted to be around others. It was messy…there were times I wish I could redo, but I learned so much about myself. There is a power to being vulnerable.

I was enamored by the moon, doing my walk home from yoga at night. I never felt more safe, walking alone down the steep hill on Beach Street. I would just look up, amazed at the glowing moon, and felt so close to home. I remember walking by Coogee Pavilion, with the dull roar of families and friends chatting, laughing and enjoying their time. I would walk out to the railing, watching the moonlight shine over the water-the waves pushing and pulling in the sea. There was so much magic to the whole thing. Such a simple task-getting from Clovelly to Coogee-walking home from yoga somehow became such a meaningful memory.

Leaving Australia was far from easy. I’ll never forget the chaos of leaving Michelle and her kids. I was a wreck! Not to mention the embarrassing amount of luggage that I rolled away  with… I was in such a daze, and felt so sad leaving such an incredible place. During my flight, I wrote pages and pages of memories, thoughts and feelings in my journal. At one point, I was just writing these random lines of thoughts that came through my head, almost like a stream of consciousness. I remember reading an article about Cara Delvigne, where she said some moment in her life “lit a fire” in her, and that really resonated with me. I felt like Australia really lit this fire that gave me so much confidence in myself and my direction.

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Gordon’s Bay along the coast walk

So you’d think that meant I came home ready to conquer everything and be in the perfect situation? Wrong. Little did I know, the work had just begun. I came home without really realizing the shock it would cause to my system. Here I am with all of these tools, ready to live my new lifestyle, with nobody understanding my progress. I had just spent months with people who watched me grow, and now I was out of my element. I let go of someone I love, all for the chance to learn more about myself and be vulnerable. And boy, was I vulnerable. I connected with these people who in the end hurt me, but I look back now feeling stronger. I was embarrassed, sad, disappointed, and kept coming back for more. I put my feelings on the line, and got what I deserved in the end. I don’t take any of it back, because I am now sure of what I want in someone and the amount of respect I have for myself. Not everyone in the world has the best intentions for you-but I believe that there’s a lesson to be learned in the end.

And now here I am, just a few weeks past graduation. I finished college! I stuck out all four years in Dallas and ended up loving it. It’s incredible to think that there is a new chapter so close to beginning, and I can’t wait. I can feel that there are about to be some beautiful adventures to come. If you’ve made it this far into my post, I applaud you. Sorry for the feelings… I know I have been off my blogging game, but I have struggled to come up with what I want to share. Despite the big changes happening now, I still feel like there is a lull. I know that with what’s to come, I will be sharing a lot with all of you!

So to come full circle with this, the term dreamer continues to add new meanings. It’s a reminder of my experience abroad, what it represented for me at that time, to continue exploring, stay true to myself, and always be open to something new–with all the lessons I’ve learned along the way. Call it a list of cliches, but it’s become a symbol of my identity, and I’m proud of it

 

x

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so much to learn, so much time

Looking back on the first half of 2015, I realize that I have learned so much about myself, others, and life in general. I have been enjoying Dallas, really living in the moment and have grown so grateful for the amazing friends I have there. I have spent quality time at home, as well as ventured out to California, New York, Nashville, and a couple trips to the Bahamas!

I feel so lucky to have the opportunities to get out of my comfort zone and see more of the world. After Australia, I have been plotting my escape out of the states to get back to that amazing place. However, I am learning so much through living in the moment.

Here are some quotes that really stood out to me–they embody the things I have discovered throughout the past seven months. I have experienced good and bad, and through it all I fully believe that everything is part of the experience. Every thing I face makes me stronger and more confident. It’s all a learning lesson-there’s no end result to be happy. It’s all about rolling with the roller coaster, and taking every experience for what it is.

There’s so much to learn, and I will continue to learn throughout my life. Things change, people change, and it’s all about being confident in yourself that life is working out the way it should be.

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working on your soul

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I recently watched Cassey Ho’s video on The “Perfect” Body and it was very moving. We are constantly look at ourselves and wish we had at least five different things about our body. We workout excessively, diet, try insane cleanses (that I personally last half a day through) all for what? Because, if I did end up achieving my “dream body”, would I feel that different? Or would I start picking out other imperfections? It’s all just a vicious cycle that we all play into.

I started wondering why we are so focused on our appearance, when it all comes down to who you are on the inside. This may seem obvious, or cliche (I am a fan of the cliches) but seriously! One day I am going to die, and whoever reflects on my life is surely not going to say “she had big arms” or “she had a good tan” (thanks for that one Brynne). I would hope that someone would talk about the person I was any impact I may have had on them.

Why are we obsessing over our bodies and overall appearance when that’s not what’s important in the end? Is that what really defines you? I’m not saying I’m perfectly secure with my image now that I’m posting this, but it is definitely something I am more aware of. I think we should all accept our bodies for what they are, how they were created, and how they will remain without trying to manipulate our diets and exercise. I’m all about a healthy lifestyle, but to restrict myself from good food or a day of vegging out on the couch is a waste of energy.

Embrace yourselves! We have so much more to share with the world, and good energy and a happy soul makes you look a lot better!

-xo-


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Happy Valentines Day!

I hope you all enjoy the day with the ones you love. I am so happy to be home with my family–we’re celebrating my cousin’s engagement! The weather is perfect, sunny and a cool 60 degrees. It’s great to take a break from reality and come home for a few days.

Send the love today! I’m missing all my friends who aren’t here today, but I’m so thankful for the great relationships in my life!

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simplicity

dainty picValentines Day is around the corner, but it’s never too late to order last minute gifts for your best friend, or to have your best friend hint to your boyfriend! My current jewelry trend is collecting small, dainty pieces that give a more simple look.

I have always loved Helen Ficalora–I have my charm necklace collection that started back in high school and is still being added on-to! They just launched an updated site which makes shopping her products a lot easier!

Catbird is a recent favorite, with the dainty stack rings that are also fun to collect! My best friend Clara recently gave me the small heart ring, which is now stacked with another ring and gold knuckle ring. I’m already adding to the collection, but it’s a secret because I got a matching one for Clara for Valentines day 🙂

I recently discovered a jewelry designer, Ariel Gordon, who has similar products and also some other adorable additions! I Love the double heart ring, and there’s some other beautiful pieces on her website!

I hope everyone has a Happy Valentines Day! This week by roommates and I will be baking sugar cookies to give to our best friends here in Dallas. I’m going home as well next weekend to see my family and celebrate my cousin’s engagement!

xx