…oh hey there!

So…where do I event start? Instead of playing catch up, I’m going to just start with the present. I’m sure everything that’s happened since my last post (cough one year ago cough) will come up anyways!

Here we are, it’s almost the middle of July and here is what is happening for me:

  • I am a CycleStar…yes, I am a STAR! Becoming an indoor cycling instructor has been a dream of mine ever since I fell in love with the workout back in Dallas. Now I am up on the podium and teaching a class full of riders and it is the most amazing feeling! I will be posting about the training experience, etc. very soon! But as for now, I am loving what it is bringing to the table in my life. If you are reading from Aspen, I’d be stoked to see you in my class! (Book online here). I am teaching early mornings which is super fun, but we also have other kickass instructors to check out as well 🙂

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  • I am in love! How gooey and gushy that statement was… but it’s true! I have been in a relationship for almost a year now and it has been the most amazing lesson on so many levels. Devan came into my life at the perfect time. I told the universe that I was ready to enter into a real and committed relationship again. What came with it was not flowers and chocolates, though, but so much more that has strengthened who I am and given me such a better sense of reality. Devan challenges me to be my best self, and that makes me set the bar high for myself and what I really want in life.

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  • I am still in Aspen.. surprise! I don’t even think that was mentioned in my last post. I think I was still home, playing with the idea of going to Aspen for a winter season, and here I still am! I went into this phase of my life trying my best to just let things happen naturally, and while that still poses a challenge at times, I know I am exactly where I need to be. Right here, right now. Plus- I always wanted to do a winter in aspen, and I did it! And I’m doing it again this year 🙂

So there you have it, just a little glimpse of what’s going on in the present. I intend to spend more time diving into what I’ve learned, and what I continue to learn. I am currently seeing an amazing life coach who also does Reiki healing and I must say it is pretty damn cool! I have been introducing mediation into my life and also started to get back into yoga again. I believe that my verrrry long hiatus from yoga happened for a reason, and now I am ready to re-enter into that realm again. Exciting!

Happy week to all!

 

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Suluban Beach, Bali

It’s funny, how when people ask me about my tattoo, somehow with a sort of smirk (or so I think). I just smile and say, “it’s my Australian souvenir” or “you know, I really wanted the word dreamer tattooed on my wrist, so I got it.” Sure, it has its moments, I look at it and wonder why I would do that…and hey, maybe I’ll get it removed one day. But sometimes, it reminds me of the mindset I was in, and the phase in my life where the whole thing took place.

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After a few days…sorry mom!

I wrote lists of reasons why I’m a dreamer. I was in such a state of bliss-I had traveled across the world and was on my own for six months. I was completely vulnerable, figuring out who I was and how I wanted to be around others. It was messy…there were times I wish I could redo, but I learned so much about myself. There is a power to being vulnerable.

I was enamored by the moon, doing my walk home from yoga at night. I never felt more safe, walking alone down the steep hill on Beach Street. I would just look up, amazed at the glowing moon, and felt so close to home. I remember walking by Coogee Pavilion, with the dull roar of families and friends chatting, laughing and enjoying their time. I would walk out to the railing, watching the moonlight shine over the water-the waves pushing and pulling in the sea. There was so much magic to the whole thing. Such a simple task-getting from Clovelly to Coogee-walking home from yoga somehow became such a meaningful memory.

Leaving Australia was far from easy. I’ll never forget the chaos of leaving Michelle and her kids. I was a wreck! Not to mention the embarrassing amount of luggage that I rolled away  with… I was in such a daze, and felt so sad leaving such an incredible place. During my flight, I wrote pages and pages of memories, thoughts and feelings in my journal. At one point, I was just writing these random lines of thoughts that came through my head, almost like a stream of consciousness. I remember reading an article about Cara Delvigne, where she said some moment in her life “lit a fire” in her, and that really resonated with me. I felt like Australia really lit this fire that gave me so much confidence in myself and my direction.

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Gordon’s Bay along the coast walk

So you’d think that meant I came home ready to conquer everything and be in the perfect situation? Wrong. Little did I know, the work had just begun. I came home without really realizing the shock it would cause to my system. Here I am with all of these tools, ready to live my new lifestyle, with nobody understanding my progress. I had just spent months with people who watched me grow, and now I was out of my element. I let go of someone I love, all for the chance to learn more about myself and be vulnerable. And boy, was I vulnerable. I connected with these people who in the end hurt me, but I look back now feeling stronger. I was embarrassed, sad, disappointed, and kept coming back for more. I put my feelings on the line, and got what I deserved in the end. I don’t take any of it back, because I am now sure of what I want in someone and the amount of respect I have for myself. Not everyone in the world has the best intentions for you-but I believe that there’s a lesson to be learned in the end.

And now here I am, just a few weeks past graduation. I finished college! I stuck out all four years in Dallas and ended up loving it. It’s incredible to think that there is a new chapter so close to beginning, and I can’t wait. I can feel that there are about to be some beautiful adventures to come. If you’ve made it this far into my post, I applaud you. Sorry for the feelings… I know I have been off my blogging game, but I have struggled to come up with what I want to share. Despite the big changes happening now, I still feel like there is a lull. I know that with what’s to come, I will be sharing a lot with all of you!

So to come full circle with this, the term dreamer continues to add new meanings. It’s a reminder of my experience abroad, what it represented for me at that time, to continue exploring, stay true to myself, and always be open to something new–with all the lessons I’ve learned along the way. Call it a list of cliches, but it’s become a symbol of my identity, and I’m proud of it

 

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so much to learn, so much time

Looking back on the first half of 2015, I realize that I have learned so much about myself, others, and life in general. I have been enjoying Dallas, really living in the moment and have grown so grateful for the amazing friends I have there. I have spent quality time at home, as well as ventured out to California, New York, Nashville, and a couple trips to the Bahamas!

I feel so lucky to have the opportunities to get out of my comfort zone and see more of the world. After Australia, I have been plotting my escape out of the states to get back to that amazing place. However, I am learning so much through living in the moment.

Here are some quotes that really stood out to me–they embody the things I have discovered throughout the past seven months. I have experienced good and bad, and through it all I fully believe that everything is part of the experience. Every thing I face makes me stronger and more confident. It’s all a learning lesson-there’s no end result to be happy. It’s all about rolling with the roller coaster, and taking every experience for what it is.

There’s so much to learn, and I will continue to learn throughout my life. Things change, people change, and it’s all about being confident in yourself that life is working out the way it should be.

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The fact that I miss Australia is an understatement.  I can’t tell you how many times I open Instagram in the morning, where my feed is flooded with Australian bloggers, restaurants, and other people who are in the middle of enjoying a beautiful day in paradise.  My heart hurts a little, then I get up and go about my day.

I know, how dramatic! I had my experience, and I am so thankful for that. I plan to go back again soon, maybe after graduating to either travel or explore…so it was not goodbye forever!

One thing I really miss, and I knew I would miss, is the walk to and from yoga. It took about 15 minutes to walk uphill from Coogee to Clovelly, where I would walk into the intimate space of This is Yoga. Melanie and Michael are amazing teachers, with vibrant and positive personalities which makes the classes even better. After a good one hour sweat, I would make my way back downhill to Coogee. I loved walking at night, looking up at the stars in a complete daze. I would make my way to the end of Beach Road, seeing all of the people eating and drinking at Coogee Pavillion, kids running around playing, and seeing the waves crash on the beautiful shore. The moon would either be lit up over the ocean, or just a crescent in the sky, but it was beautiful either way. The sound of the ocean still resonates in my head, the feeling of the salty breeze, and the overall sense of being grounded.

Sydney truly is a special place. I don’t know anyone who comes back with a single bad thing to say about it. I hope I can go back again soon…but until then I’ll try to keep myself from checking Instagram first thing in the morning!

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must be on vacation

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…clearly! I haven’t posted anything in the longest time! This semester has been hectic, not to mention it’s flown by! It’s crazy to think I was in Australia a few months ago, and that I had all these goals and plans in mind. So much has changed, but I am committed to going back to Australia very soon!

I’m going to NYC this weekend! I’ve only been twice when I was younger, so I’m excited to go on my own and visit friends.

Dallas has been amazing–believe it or not, I’m going to stay in June for classes. Hopefully I can squeeze in a Bahamas trip in May, I’m dying to get to the beach for some summer sun! I’m also excited to say that I signed up to complete my yoga teacher training with Baron Baptiste this summer. I’ll be going to New York for a week-long intensive teacher training. I can’t wait to see some old faces from level one, as well as meet some new people!

I’ll be sure to keep this more up to date, with a NYC post to follow!

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For months I’ve been dying to try acro yoga, aerial yoga, and to get back on my paddle board for SUP yoga–lucky for me, I got to do them all within four days! My friend Natalie visited for the week and she was the best guest I could ever ask for! She kept me constantly busy, venturing out and trying new things. I had so much fun showing her all of my favorite restaurants and outdoor activities as well! She and I made many new friends through each of our workshops and classes too!

These yoga classes are popping up everywhere. It’s such a fun group activity, or even a fun date! I found it very interesting (and true!) when Kyle, the acro instructor, explained how we live in a closed-off society where touching and close contact are not comfortable to many people. Now, I’m not saying let’s all just walk super close and hug every stranger, it’s more about developing intimate relationships and being open to people you may not initially associate yourself with. I think that is so important–why simply look past someone when they could become your closest friend? We are all here for the same reason, right? We all want happiness, and we all want to be loved–so why shouldn’t we all help each other achieve that goal by being friendly and open?

With that, I challenge you to try one (or all!) of these classes. Maybe even try going alone, you can partner up, swing next to, or wipe out in the water with a total stranger. You could have such a memorable experience with new friends, or mix it up with some of your friends now. They are so fun and surprisingly easier than they look!

Here are some pictures from our upside down adventures this past week : )  
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Palm Beach Athletic Wear and Yoga’s Flying Fitness class–so fun (and funny!)

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SUP yoga with Blueline! Natalie and I got our handstands too…almost!

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